Friday, November 19, 2010

One Last Update?


Hello, I've decided to update everyone on how I'm doing, and the short, quick answer to that is not good, but it could be worse.

On Sunday, I decided to stop eating. I just don't seem to want to eat anything. As a result, I've lost more weight and am getting cold a lot. Mom has left her heating pad on low with a thick blanket over it so I won't get too hot, but I do like to curl up there and stay warm, especially in the morning. I also like to snuggle into her newest afghan. It's very warm. In fact, I'm laying on it right now.

As I said, on Sunday, I decided to stop eating. Mom made me eat a little watered down baby food, but I struggled with her. I also kind of didn't know to get up to use the litterbox while I was sleeping, so I got mom a little wet, and another time, got the blanket I was in wet. I really wasn't feeling well at all. I was very lethargic, and stayed curled up under the blankets all night. Mom stayed up all night with me. She had to go into work on Monday, but came home on her lunch break. By then, I was feeling a bit better and I decided I wanted to go outside and sit in the sun a bit. I am usually only allowed out when it is time to get the mail, and then Mom carries me most of the way. Anyway, she let me out, and sat with me on the stairs for a while, but then she had to go back to work. When she came home after work, I again wanted to go outside and wanted to explore a little. Mom was very happy about this because she said she thought she was going to have to take me into the v-e-t so I could go on a trip. I am not quite ready for that trip just yet.

On Tuesday, I decided to try a little more food. I ate about 2 mouthfuls, and decided to try to steal some of Mom's quesadilla. It was buttery, and I really like butter. I also met her at the door again when she got home from work to go pick up the mail, but she wouldn't let me sit outside because she said it was much to cold out there. She had stopped by the v-e-t to leave a message about how I was doing.

On Wednesday, Dr. Martini (the v-e-t) called Mom and they talked about me quite a bit. Mom told him that I had stopped eating (except for the two mouthfuls) but that I was still meeting her at the door for my daily trip outside, and that I still seem interested in finding new places to sleep. He agreed with Mom that I will probably get to see my brother, Tiki, and sister, Camie, before too long. He also told my Mom not to force any more medications on me, except my Pepcid (because the renal failure causes high acid amounts which could lead to a sore tummy) and my fluids to keep my hydrated. He said that he could tell I was a fighter and so was Mom because my numbers were so high 2-1/2 weeks ago, he was surprised I wasn't at the Bridge already. Basically, he told my Mom to keep me comfortable and happy, and to bring me in when it was time for my trip to the Bridge.

Today, I didn't meet my mom at the door for our trip because it was a bit cold in here, and I was curled up in our favorite afghan. Mom picked me up anyway and took me out to get the mail. I've been up and walking around tonight and going to a couple of my favorite places to sleep. I jump up with Mom and sleep on her lap until she either has to get up or I get too hot (the afghan is really warm) and then I jump down and sleep in my ham-mick, and when I get cold again, I jump back up on the couch and sleep with Mom again. I am hanging in there, and fighting as much as I can. I even ate a couple of licks of butter again tonight, and took one lick of the juice from the cat food.

As you can see, my bones are really prominent and I have almost no fat left at all. Mom is calling me her skinny, little man, or little old man. I don't mind as I am both.

As, always, thank you for being our friends and thank you for always making us laugh or cry - usually just when we need one or the other the most.

74 comments:

Brian said...

Oh sweetie, it is a real pleasure to meet you even though you are feeling poorly. I can tell how loved you are and I wish you nothing but the best.

Eric and Flynn said...

Tavi, we are so sad that you are not doing too well. We will continue to purr for you. You and your family are in our thoughts and purrayers.

Parker said...

Dear Tavi and Mom - we send you warm hugs and love.
We wish you love and peace. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.
(((hugs)))

The Island Cats said...

Tavi, we are sorry to eahr that you aren't doing well. We purr for you and your mom...

Cory said...

Tavi, thanks for keeping us updated on how you are doing. We are keeping our soft warm and comforting purrs going and sending them to you and your mom.

Forty Paws said...

We are sending you tons of purrs and purrayers. You are in our thoughts Tavi.

Luf, Us and Maw

KitKat said...

Oh Tavi we are so sad you are not doing well. Our prayers and thoughts are with you and your sweet Mom. She has endured so much.
Soft purrs and gentle kisses,
Angel Normie, Mika, Sasha & Grady

Cheysuli and gemini said...

Ah Tavi, we wish you were feeling better but know that this is often what happens towards the end. We are purring for your whole family for we know that if you are like our lovely Georgia cat, this time is far harder on them than it is on you.

Two Greyhound Town said...

You are in our thoughts. Gentle hugs.

Tiki, Kirby, and StanLee (and Kesey) said...

What a brave boy you are. Sending purrs to you and your Mommy.

Jan's Funny Farm said...

Oh, Tavi, we can just imagine how your mom feels. Purrs and tail wags for you and for her.

Kea said...

Tavi, we just found your blog and your post makes us very sad and our mom's eyes leaky. Please know we are sending you purrs and universal Light, and purraying that when it's time to take the trip to the Bridge, you have a gentle, peaceful passing.

Blessings and Light to you and your mom.

-Annie, Nicki, Derry and Mom Kim

ABBY said...

Dear Tavi
You have been such a wonderful companion and friend to your dear sweet Mom. I can see how much love and affection there is between the two of you. You are a brave, strong fighter Tavi and you have our deepest respect.We will say a prayer for you and your Mom when we light our candle tonight -- we hope your days are filled with love and light.

purrin
xoxox
Abby

The Misadventures Of Me said...

Tavi, please keep fighting for as long as yoo can. The mom and us, know what crf can do, its so hard, but yoo know when its time, yoo'll let her know.

The moms leaking like crazy and huggin us, so nows our furs are wet.

Yoo is still a handsome old man.

Molly
Shadow
Trooder
Mooch

cwcwccw said...

Tavi and Mom, we are purrs and prays for you.

joanne, jane, jill, johnny, jay boy, jasmine & capu from Singapore

Mickey,Georgia , Tillie said...

Tavi, we send you purrs. You know time is short so be sure to give your Mom sandpaper kisses before you go. We will send purrs to your Mom too.

Purrs Mickey,Georgia & Tillie

The Kool~Kittie~Krew said...

We are so saddned to hear you're not doing well. We are sending healing and warm, comforting purrs to you, sweet Tavi.

William said...

Aw, Tavi. We're sad to learn you're having such a hard time. Poor little guy, but you're being so brave. Our thoughts and purrs are with you and your mom.

P.S. My old bro liked mayo.

Teri and the cats of Furrydance said...

We are trying to prepare ourselves to say fare well, Sweet Tavi...it is so hard for those of us left behind...we just want you to be light and free and young again...

Angel and Kirby said...

Tavi, we are so sad that you are not doing well! We are sending love and
purrs!

Ayla and Iza, said...

Skeeter tole us today that he is waitin to welcome you. He says he knows the feelings you have.

You will know the right time ta leave. We hope ya will tell yer Bein. It is important ta them that they know.

Everycat said...

Sweet Tavi, we are so sorry to learn that things aren't going so well, but we know you are safe, warm and loved with your family and they will make these times as gentle and loving as can be for you. We are honoured to have known you and we send you, your Mom and the family many rumbly purrs and love

For the journey Tavi, we sing for you

Whicky Wuudler
Oliver
Gerry
& Jane the ape

Kaz's Cats said...

Tavi, thank you for letting us know how things are going. We're sorry that you don't feel so good, but we're glad that you and your Mom get to hang out lots...I (Gypsy) haven't been eating so good this year either, but Mum has recently discovered that I'll eat more roast chicken that anything else, so maybe that might be something you want to try...Sending our best purrs and purrayers to you and your Mom and your family,

{{{hugs}}}

Gypsy & Tasha & Karen (Mum)

Old Kitty said...

Hello there Tavi! Me and my cat Charlie came over from ManxMnews because we heard you were not feeling well but fighting on! We wish you all the very best and glad that you are surrounded by your loving and wonderful family! We think you are very brave and beautiful. Take care x

Samantha, Clementine and Maverick said...

Hi Tavi!! We are so glad you are fighting the good fight!! We are sending lots of purrrs and prayers your way!! You are such a brave kitty!!
(((((((((HUGGGGSSSSS)))))))) from your TX furiends,

ML said...

O, Tavi, we are sending you love and purrs and purrayers.
You are such a brave and handsome mancat.
And hugs to yours mommy.
Love,
KC
Missy Blue Eyes
Faith Boomerang
Sol
Smokey
Brutus Junior
Mom ML

cats of wildcat woods said...

This is a hard time for you and your Mom but it seems like you want to be here a while longer. Mom will know when you don't. Sending lots of purrs for you both.

Kat's Kats said...

Hugs & prayers from the mom of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Kitty Horde. One of our former members, Nicodemus the Evile Anti-Koala aka Thief Cat did this as well. He hadn't been unwell but he was a Very Senior Cat. I talked to our vet who told me to follow my instinct (I've had cat companions all my life). At the time I lived in a house with radiant heat floors in the master bath and that's where Nikki stayed when he wasn't on the waterbed with me (it was across from the kitty litter too).

He stopped eating altogether but would take a bit of water. Somehow I knew the day he was ready to go. I picked him up in a soft towel (the one he like to use on vet rides) and laid him on my chest in the bed while stroking him. He purred and purred and purred. All of Da Boys (and we had a number at the time) came in order of Senority to touch noses and groom him and say good-bye. I've never seen anything like it.

Remember that the memories of love will outweigh the grief of loss. You both have all of our purrs & prayers.

The Teenage Mutant Ninja Kitty Horde & their Feeders

Junior and Orion said...

Tavi, we are glad to read what a fighter you are, and how much your Mom is fighting for you and how well she is taking care of you. We know you will let your Mom know when you are raedy to go. We will be purring and praying for all of you.

Furkidsmom said...

Sweet Tavi, we will purr and pray for you and for your Mom.

The Florida Furkids and Angel Sniffie

Chesney Cats said...

Tavi you are in our purrayers. We are also purraying for your family as we know this is very hard for them.

We love you & are furry grateful that you are one of our furriends.

ZOOLATRY said...

Dear sweet Tavi ~ we are purring and praying for you, and for your family. We don't want to lose you, but if it is time, when it is time ~ you'll take a little piece of our hearts along on your journey. Your friends,
Maggy and Zoey (and Ann) from
Zoolatry

Karen Jo said...

I am very sorry that you are not doing well, Tavi. I am glad that there is so much love surrounding you to make your fight easier. I am sending hugs and Herman sends comforting purrs.

Hannah and Lucy said...

We are sorry to hear that you are very tired and not doing too well. We can see you are a mighty fighter staying with your mom for as long as you can.
We are sending gentle head butts and lot of whiskery kisses.
Luv Hannah and Lucy xx xx

Sam said...

We are visiting from Zoolatry - we are so sorry you are not feeling way. We are saying prayers for you and sending hugs to your Mom.

Sam

♥♥♥ The OP Pack ♥♥♥ said...

Dear sweet Tavi, our kitty furiends Maggy and Zoey told us you weren't feeling well. We stopped by to wish you some good thoughts and to give some hugs to you and your mom. Lots of prayers too.

Woos ~ Phantom, Thunder, and Ciara

Caren Gittleman said...

We are thinking of you and praying for you dear Tavi. We just heard about you today...we are sending you much love and prayers.

Caren and Cody from Cat Chat http://opcatchat.blogspot.com

Sweet Praline said...

Tavi, I'm keeping you in my purrayers and purring that you aren't feeling any pain and that you can stay with your mom a little longer.

The Creek Cats said...

Tavi, we are purring and purraying very hard for you, sweetheart!!

AFSS said...

Tavi, it is a real pleasure to meet you even though you are feeling poorly. We can tell how loved you are. WE are sending tons of healing and comforting purrs to you and your Mom.

Ginger Jasper said...

I came from my friends at Zoolatry to say I am so sorry you are sick and am sending you some of my loudest purrs.. Hugs GJ x

Sabrina, Sam and Simon said...

Tavi, we are sending our absolutely strongest purrs and purrayers to you ...
Hugs,
Sabrina, Sam and Simon

Ikaika said...

Tavi, we are sending healing purrs to you so you will feel better until you decide to make your journey. You are a very brave little man.

Milo and Alfie Marshall said...

We are very sorry to hear yoo are unwell and are sending healing purrs.

Sparkle said...

My human has been out of town all weekend so this is the first chance I've had to see this - I am sorry your are not well, and it's making your human unhappy, but I think you are wise enough to know that you have an exciting new adventure ahead of you sometime soon. I am sending lots of purrs to both you and your family and I hope the transition will not be hard on any of you.

The Meezers or Billy said...

Tavi we just want you to know that we love you and your mom very much. Our the mom knows what your mom is going through and she has tears in her eyes for her.

The Taylor CatSSSSS said...

Tavi, we wanted to tell you that we love you and your mommy so much. We are thinking and purring and praying for you.

Love, uSSSSS

Junior and Orion said...

How are you doing today Tavi? We are still purring for you.

SuziQCat said...

Tavi we are sad that you are not feeling well. The warm blanket sounds like a great place to lay though. Sending purrs your way today.

Zippy, Sadie and Speedy said...

We'z sorry yoo is not doing so well, Tavi, and we know dat dis is harder on da mom den it is on yoo. We kitties just know dat Heaven and our frends wait fur us but it's so hard on our humans to think of us not being here. We'z sending hugs and purrs to yoor and, speshully, yoor mom.

A few Good Cats said...

Tavi, we are sending you and your human comforting vibes and purrayers.

Chester & Mickey said...

We have you in our thoughts and prayers.

Punkin,Sooner,Pete,Lucky,Puck,Mickey,Chester

Dr Tweety of da Fab Five said...

Oh no!!!
Dis iz what happenz when we cannots blog.... one of our dear frendz becomez ill.
Dear Tavi, pleeze don't give up! Auntie Stinkie sez you helped her so much & now she will help you.
Whatevfur we can do.
We justy knowz dats your momee will be dere, no matter what. She iz a loyal loving momee & she will hold you in her armz.
We cannot goez away without thankin' you fur all your kind wordz & comfort to us in hard timez & it hurts to know dats we neglected our frendz in need.
Pleeze hear our purrz 'cuz dey are comin' right at you Tavi, & dey will not stop!
Love,
Dr Tweety, Delilah, Iris, Maximilian, & da Auntie Stinkie

The Lee County Clowder said...

Just checking in to see how Tavi is doing. Puurrssss for everyone.

Cory said...

Sending comfortng purrs.

Cory and family

ML said...

O, Tavi, we loves you so much.
And yours Mom Tara will do the right fing fur you, no matter how much it hurts hers.
You are a furry handsome little old man, I must say. Hee hee.
Love & Purrs,
KC & The Sherwood Kitties

Poppy Q said...

We are sending you and your mum some purrs too sweet Tavi.

Julie and Poppy Q

Kaz's Cats said...

We're purring and purraying for you Tavi, and for your Mom,

{{{hugs}}}

Gypsy & Tasha

Sparkle said...

Tavi, I am sending you lots of purrs and hopes for a pain-free journey today. I know your human is doing what is best for you, and I hope she knows it too, even though she is very, very sad. Hugs to you both.

Brian said...

My sisters and I send purrs, hugs & love. We will remember you forever Tavi. Love, Brian, Sascha, Gracie, Zoe & Dolly.

Hannah and Lucy said...

We are sending lots of purrs and love for your journey to Rainbow Bridge. Your meowmie is doing the hardest but kindest thing for you today and we can only guess how much of a hole this will make in her life.
God speed Tavi, luv from Hannah and Lucy xx xx

Sweet Praline said...

Tavi, I am so sorry that things aren't getting better and that you may need to cross the bridge soon. Special purrs for you and your mom.

The Meezers or Billy said...

Tavi, we is so sorry that you will have to go to the Bridge. We are just heartbroken for you all.

God Speed Tavi, we will purrr for your journey to the Bridge where someday we will meet.

The Island Cats said...

We are purring for you, Tavi, as you make your journey to the Bridge. We are also purring for your mom because we know how hard this is for her...she will miss you very much, as will we.

Godspeed....

A few Good Cats said...

Comforting purrs from all of us...

meowmeowmans said...

Tavi, you will surely be missed. Know that you are loved, and that you will always be loved and never forgotten, sweet boy. We are sending lots of comforting purrs and prayers for you and your mom.

ABBY said...

Dear Tavi & Mom Tara

We are so very sorry to hear the news today about you dear sweet Tavi.
Our heart ache with bittersweet sadness. We know that your Mom is doing what is the hardest thing she can do, but also the most compassionate. We know that your spirit will go from one set of loving arms to another with beautiful angel wings.
We will purr softly and wish you well as you take your journey.

Abby,Boo,Ping,Jinx,Grace & Mom Debra

***
The Greatest Gift

I always knew this time would come,
From the very instant our eyes first met.
How I loved you then! How I lvoe you now!
I made a promise then, and I will keep that promise now...
You will not suffer from a pain that will not heal;
You will not know the loss of a life remembered, now gone.

It is for me alone to make this decision,
The price for the bright joy and pure laughter
You brought me during the time we shared.
I am the only one who can decide when it is time.
When my hope dies, and my fear rides high,
Just when I need you most, I must let you go.

It is for you alone to tell me when you are ready
For without your guidance, I will not know
When to lay my grief, my guilt, my anger
My sorrow and my selfish heart aside
and give you this last gift, this greatest gift.
You eyes will speak to mine and I will know.

The pain of this moment is excruciating.
Tears stream down my face in a river of sorrow.
And my heart drowns in a pool of grief.
For you have spoken and I have listened,
and unlike other decisions I have made
This one brings no relief...no comfort...no peace.

For if there's one thing you've taught me
If there's only one thing I've learned....
Unconditional love has a condition after all,
I must be willing to let you go, when you speak to me
I must be willing to help you go, if you cannot go alone
And I must accept my pain so you can be free of yours.

Go easily now, go quickly now,
Do not linger here, it is time for you to leave.
Go find your strength, go find your youth
Go find the ones who have gone before you
You are free to leave me now, free to let your spirit soar
Rest easy now, your pain will soon be gone.

I pray I will find comfort in my memories...
in the dark and lonely days ahead.
I cannot say I will not miss you, I cannot say I will not cry.
For only my tears can heal my broken heart.
But I promise you this; as long as I live,
You will live, alive in my mind, forever in my heart.

So I give you this last gift, all I have left to give,
And this will be my greatest gift...sending you away.
It is the measure of my unconditional love....
For only the greatest love can say
"Goodbye, go find the bridge, we'll meet again,
Loving you has been the greatest gift of all."

By Karla Bertram

Milo and Alfie Marshall said...

Sweet Tavi, we are sending you love and purrs for your final journey whenever that will be. In the meantime we hope you are warm and conforatble and surrounded by love. Purrs.

(((((((hugs)))))) for your mom too.

Kea said...

Tavi, we are sending purrs and Light to you for a peaceful and gentle journey to the Bridge and are sending purrs and Light to comfort your mom.

Peace.

Cheysuli and gemini said...

We have been thinking of you and your family today. Our purrs for a sweet and gentle crossing for a sweet and gentle cat.

Forty Paws said...

We send you tons of purrs and purrayers for a safe journey to The Bridge. You will be free of pain and you will have a healthy body and can run free there. God speed to you Tavi. Look for Bow and Gatsbi, Davy, Munchkin, Patches and Inky, Dusty, Tiger and everyone else who has gone before.

Luf, Us and Maw

Punapippuri said...

Many purrs and very gentle nose rubs to you. Much respect. <<<>>>

Sabrina, Sam and Simon said...

Tavi, we are so sad to hear that you will be flying to the Bridge. We are sending our strongest purrayers to you for a safe journey there, and to your family to help them get through this heartbreaking time ...
Hugs, purrs and headbutts,
Sabrina, Sam, Simon and Momma Jan

Mr. Hendrix said...

Purrrrrrrrrrrrrs and gentle hugs to you dear Tavi. We will keep you and your family in our thoughts and prayers.